I'm sure that some of you only opened this email because of the scandalous title, but don't be too worried. There's a really great story to explain...
But first, a picture with my best friend on the planet!
Its still pretty cold out here in Bucuresti, but we are braving the cold and getting the work done! It has been amazing working with Sora Schow again. She pushes me to be better in all the best ways and I absolutely love her for it. I feel like I've grown so much just in the past week! She is literally the best influence of my life and I love her! AND we're rooming together this fall so it will be like the mission will never end! Well, except that all the rules are going out the window. But don't tell anyone I said that... ;)
So, this story actually has two parts: A literal midnight visit and a more figurative one. Let's start with the literal one...
Sora Schow and I were home and in bed ON TIME like good little sister missionaries. Unfortunately our little brick of a phone decided not to receive calls and texts even though it was turned on and plugged in by our beds. (That'll be more important later.) Well, Sora Schow and I were talking...and talking...and talking and before you know it it was a little bit past our normal bedtime. We finally made the decision to go to sleep right about the time when Cinderella would normally turn into a pumpkin when suddenly we hear the loudest banging on our door. No joke. We freak out because we have no idea who could possibly be at the door and I run out to my bag, grab my pepper spray, come back to the door, Sora Schow and I get on the phone with one of our investigators (because we figured all the missionaries were asleep and no one would answer if we tried to call) and then we go to look through the peep hole at the door and the door handle starts moving. Sora Schow and I were literally, silently, freaking out and then I got the peep hole and...it was the elders. -_-
I was so mad.
Apparently everyone in the mission had been trying to get a hold of us to see if we were home and safe and when we didn't answer they got worried and then ended up having to show up at our door at midnight to make sure that we were okay. It was actually very thoughtful of them. Elder Haws has now been dubbed my official "rescuer" since last time he also had my back after getting booted in the head while playing soccer. But that's another story for another day.
The much more interesting Midnight Visit that I want to talk about is captured in this picture quote:
One of the reasons why Sora Schow and I were up talking for so long is because sometimes I become weighed down by the past and fearful of the future. I think that all of us feel this way from time to time. We have those slightly frightening "midnight visits" in our conscience that make us feel unsettled, insecure, and vulnerable. We feel like going back to things that are past instead of pressing forward into an uncharted future. For all those who feel that way, please know that I know that it really is hard. It is hard to press forward believing and hoping for a future that will be so much better than the past. It is hard to imagine having something better in the future that is better than what you have now.
There are two scriptures that are really comforting to me when I start to think this way and I'd love to share them here. The first is Ether 12:4 -
Wherefore, whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh of faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God.
And the second is something that I read in 1 Nephi 11 -
And I said unto him: I know that [God] loveth his children; nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things.
I love these two scriptures because, for me, they help me in those momentary "midnight visits" when things seem to be at their darkest and most hopeless. However, I know that tomorrow will always be better and that the future is as bright as our faith. If we believe in God, then we can hope for a better world. And, when we are worried for the future or concerned about the past, all we need to remember is that we, like Nephi, do not know the meaning of all things, but we do know that God loves us. And because he loves us, we will all have brighter dreams for our futures and much more laughable pasts.
Until next week!